Good morning 💛 My fellow moms... can we talk for a second?
Lately I’ve felt like I’m drowning. Whether it’s in dishes, work, laundry, or just my daughter screaming at me for no apparent reason, I feel like I can’t get away. And I think it’s taking a toll on my mental health.
Because you see, I made the decision when Hazel was born that I wanted to give her my all. I wanted to stay home with her, even if it meant giving up certain aspects of my life. And I also made the decision to share her with you all, and it’s brought me such joy to do that.
But... I’m starting to think I gave too much. I feel like I’ve lost myself. I’ve forgotten who Hayli is and what she enjoys, what her passions are. I don’t know myself outside being Hazel’s mom, and it’s starting to cost me. But the mom guilt is so real. Any time I want to take time for myself, I almost immediately talk myself out of it. “I should be able to handle this” or “I don’t have time to go lay by the pool when I still have so much to do here.” It never ends - feeling resentful of my life for having no time for myself, then feeling guilty for not being able to do it all.
I hope this doesn’t come off like I’m ungrateful. I know how lucky I am to be Hazel’s mommy, and she is without question the best thing that’s ever happened to me. All of the ups will always, always be worth all of the downs when it comes to my girl.
So here’s where I’m at. I’m going to start being kinder to myself. I know how important it is to be the best version of myself for my daughter, and I’m going to start doing it. I’m going to stop making excuses to not take her to daycare a couple days a week and use that time to find myself again - mainly to read and write, since those have always been my lifelong passions.
So this is a reminder to my fellow moms - take time for yourself. You are doing an incredible job being the best parent you can be for your child, but that means focusing on yourself regularly, too. You are your own person outside of being your child’s parent, and it will make everyone happier if you practice self care and remember that. I’m going to try my best.